Monday, March 22, 2010

Just another day...

I am depressed.

Ok I put it out there. Things should get better right? Acknowledging it is half the battle right?

I have let my life fall apart piece by piece. I have given up alot of things that I have loved. Stopped doing things that made me happy.

I am not exactly sure why, but I have.

All because I am depressed and down. And not wanting to deal with things.

I sleep all day, go to work, come home, and hide behind this screen. I don't do anything. I don't cook, clean, nothing. I just barely exist.

Today tho I took a step. I cleaned my kitchen, did all the dishes. Dishes that had been sitting there for far longer than they should have. And now I have White Chicken Chili in the crockpot.

Tomorrow I will work on my bedroom. Then the next day my living room. One step at a time is what I am doing.

So if you happen to read this...which I am sure no one really does...leave me a comment...tell me your tricks to clean things, keep things clean, how you have a schedule...whatever it is that gets you up and motivated. I could use the inspiration.


hangel said...

Oh the evil depression monster that attacks your soul and sucks out everything. It is miserable. But, I love you. Know that. And the fact that you can put one foot forward and take a step is great. Hang in there!

Tips to cleaning? HIRE someone :) Well, that is my suggestion. Ha ha ha...My big thing is to pick up before I go to bed. Hate starting the morning looking at a disaster. So even if I am tired, I pick up. Makes for a better morning!

Lunch! We need a date!

Angel said...

Yes, lunch...very soon. I am free most days. This week tho, I think I am already doing lunch on Thursday with my Mother. Does sometime next week work? Let me know :)